this actually came out of my mouth..

[elionwyr]

..totally unexpected-like.
Sparky was talking to Bertha about a funeral Bertha has to go to tomorrow, and the phrase "God never gives you more than you can take" was uttered.

I bounced out of my cubicle and said..
"You can also say, 'God, I've had enough.' We should not be victims to our god's whim. I just can't believe in a god where there's no dialogue."

No idea where that came from - but it's certainly what I believe.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Okay, I'll try that.

GOD, I've had ENOUGH!

What do you think will happen.

Well.

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

I think that, at the very least, it's a healthy release.
I just can't believe that it's healthy to say, instead, "Oh...ok...I guess God wants me to suffer.."
I don't have time or energy for such a god.

What will happen?
Personally - I think that it creates change.

Shit happens.
Ugly shit happens.
It makes more sense to me to face these things with the belief that it will change, that I can focus on and create change, than to accept the shit and wait for more.

I think everything matters - every thought, every bit of energy put out there counts.

And I'll allow, O Anonymous One, that it's very pollyanna of me.
I can't effectively defend my belief structure.
I simply know it works for me.

And of course that's not enough of an answer.

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

You'd have to read the history in my journal, I think, to understand that my belief isn't as flighty as it sounds.

There's an entry - "How I Came to be Strapped To this Guerney" - that gives a glimpse into my not-so-perfect self - http://www.livejournal.com/talkread.bml?journal=elionwyr&itemid=51804 .

- I don't know how much I need to explain my Self.
But rest assured - I have a nice collection of life scars; most of them are ones I'll reveal and talk about.