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elionwyrWhen I was 17 - just barely - I basically ran away from home, in the guise of moving to Philly to live with my mother. It did many things - it helped restore my sanity and it also made me an exile from my father's family.
But I still dream that I'm stuck in his home. I had one of these dreams last night - where I'm trying to get out, I'm packing, and I'm trying to figure out where the hell I'm going to live. I'm always unable to get in touch with my mom; I'm either looking for a bus or an apartment - somewhere to live, to escape to.
The dreams totally ignore the fact that I'm married. I'm alone (except for a cat, usually, which is the only real tie-over from my waking life).
I know it's a stress dream. It's a little like the stereotypical high school dream of being late for class or it being graduation day and you never attended a single session of gym.
Definitely disconcerting. And it always makes me wake up feeling damned lonely.
*grumble*
But I still dream that I'm stuck in his home. I had one of these dreams last night - where I'm trying to get out, I'm packing, and I'm trying to figure out where the hell I'm going to live. I'm always unable to get in touch with my mom; I'm either looking for a bus or an apartment - somewhere to live, to escape to.
The dreams totally ignore the fact that I'm married. I'm alone (except for a cat, usually, which is the only real tie-over from my waking life).
I know it's a stress dream. It's a little like the stereotypical high school dream of being late for class or it being graduation day and you never attended a single session of gym.
Definitely disconcerting. And it always makes me wake up feeling damned lonely.
*grumble*
