LJ Idol, Week 5: Inconceivable.

[elionwyr]

I don't know what I'm doing here.

I'm here because of a man, and a courtship that's hiccuped across the pages of my calendar. We've spent hours upon hours on the phone and in pixels, and exactly ten seconds alone in person. And there's no damned way I'm good enough for him. I've driven across three states to this inexpensive hotel room; I've fussed at my hair, pulled on a dress, and texted him to say, "Ok, this is as good as it gets. I'm ready."

I'm not. I'm so not. If someone were right now to offer me a transformative fix, I'd say 'yes' before the finished sentence had left her faery lips. But there is just me, caught in the mirror, hiding none of my doubt and terror.

Too late to run. He's at the door.

I ask him for a hug. He obliges. I stand shivering in his arms, surrounded by his strength, finally able to breathe. We leave in search of dinner and tea, talking about my trip, about his job, about our lives. I am hypnotized by his hands as they cut graceful lines through the air over his meal.

He catches me staring.

"I'm - I'm sorry. You're just so pretty," I stammer. Dammit. Why does anyone let me talk?

He smiles, changes the subject.

And later, back at my room, he takes my hands in his own. "Have I told you I'm really happy that you're here?"

"Well...not recently."

"I'm really happy you're here," he murmurs. And he kisses me.

There are kisses that are awkward, that mean nothing, that are forgettable.

There are kisses that change your world.

We kiss, and it's inconceivable that we have never kissed before.

We kiss, and it's as if we have been kissing each other for forever with a 40 year-long pause to breathe.

We kiss, and need no glass slipper to know that we are a perfect seamless fit.

Comments

[jem0000000.livejournal.com]

Awwwwww! How romantic!

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

And absolutely true. :)

[jem0000000.livejournal.com]

I love it when real life works out like that. :)

[basric.livejournal.com]

Gorgeous writing, I love it. (=

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[brilligspoons.livejournal.com]

This is lovely! Very nice!

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[n-maranda-coy.livejournal.com]

This line

...a courtship that's hiccuped across the pages of my calendar....

and this one

...it's as if we have been kissing each other for forever with a 40 year-long pause to breathe....

pack a helluva punch.

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

:D

[whipchick.livejournal.com]

So beautiful and sweet!

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

:D

[noodledays.livejournal.com]

and it's as if we have been kissing each other for forever with a 40 year-long pause to breathe. - pretty sure that's my favorite line. this is a really nice piece. :)

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

Thank you! :D

[muchtooarrogant.livejournal.com]

I'm a sucker for Internet romance stories, because it's the way my wife and I met. This was romantic and sweet.

Dan

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

And it is. And it isn't.
We met IRL but due to distance, much of our courtship has been electronic. Someday we may even discover Skype...!

And yay for you and your wife! <3

[majesticarky.livejournal.com]

Nice! This reminds me of that "Moment Like This" song.

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

I'll have to look that up..!

I love it

[janusaries.livejournal.com]

Beautiful. It really captures the transition from hesitation to certainty.

Re: I love it

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

Thank you. :)

[pixiebelle.livejournal.com]

Beautiful and so romantic.


There are kisses that change your world.

We kiss, and it's inconceivable that we have never kissed before.

I know how that feels... and then even after over a year, it always seems like we are kissing for the first time still :)

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

Woo!

[nodressrehersal.livejournal.com]

What a lovely story, and so nicely told, too.

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[lawchicky.livejournal.com]

Awwwwww

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

:)

[myrna-bird.livejournal.com]

Aw Gee. Sweeeet.

[reallyginnyf.livejournal.com]

So sweet!

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

His love is a constant gift. :)

[n3m3sis42.livejournal.com]

Awww, yay. :D

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

*happy dance*

[copyright1983.livejournal.com]

Awesome (with the emphasis on the "Awwww...")!

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

Thank you! :)

[phoenixejc.livejournal.com]

Sweet! I love this entry!!!

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

Yay!

[fourzoas.livejournal.com]

It's great when things just work, isn't it? Glad that it did in this case!

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

Such a gift. :)

[michikatinski.livejournal.com]

This makes me smile. I love the disbelief and wonder you portray here. Well done.

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

Thank you! (And that disbelief and wonder haven't really gone away...)

[lapis-lazuli615.livejournal.com]

We kiss, and it's as if we have been kissing each other for forever with a 40 year-long pause to breathe.
I know that feeling, so this one line hit me in the gut.

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

Ooo...good. I'm glad we're not the only ones! *hug*

[java-fiend.livejournal.com]

This is very sweet and really, really beautifully written. Nicely done. :-)

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

*blush* Thank you. This entry isn't getting a whole lot of notice...the notice it IS getting makes me smile a lot. I appreciate your words. :)

[java-fiend.livejournal.com]

It looks like you'll be perfectly safe this week though. So it's gotten some pretty good notice. Perhaps just quietly. :-)

[karmasoup.livejournal.com]

I LOVE the "why does anyone let me talk?" line! :D And, I love how this flows, but, mostly, how it ends. (I'm still waiting for that inconceivable kiss, myself, so, it's nice to know from others that it does exist.)

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

I feel that way a lot. A LOT.

And yes, that kiss exists. I stopped believing it was possible, or even something to hope for. I'm happy to say I was wrong. And I hope you find your kiss. **hug**