on attractiveness

[elionwyr]

I have been fairly rampantly insecure lately.

It's pretty much all in my head, really, coupled with the amazing ability most of us have to not be able to see past our own flaws. Most days I can't get past the way my skin flushes and the need I see in my body to go back on a low carb diet.

But here's where it gets silly: I am insecure. With rare exception do I ever look in a mirror and think the person looking back is kinda cute. And yet I'll catch myself reacting to strangers on the street as if I believe myself to be someone people look at. Whether that reaction is to cringe away and not make eye contact for fear someone might talk to me, or I meet the other person's eyes and smile...it is still an acknowledgement of something I don't personally believe.

What the frig, over?

Comments

You are so NOT alone!

[magickalmom.livejournal.com]

I often find myself feeling like this (actually in the last few weeks I have been here) but I wanted to offer some hope. With personal work you can flip this and reach a point where most days you can see your actual reflection and not the skewed one you are seeing now. Trust me because I have been there more than once. :-) We just sometimes go through downswings and every pendulum eventually needs to swing in the opposite direction... you know? *hugs*

Re: You are so NOT alone!

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

Hadn't thought of the pendulum...yay for hope! *grin*

*hugs back*

[ysobelle.livejournal.com]

You're getting a lot of positive reinforcement now, and I think that's wonderfully good. At some point, you'll feel better-- you'll believe. As you should. You're awesome.

Love you.

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

Oh, granted. But it's also all open to interpretation and I realized this weekend that I am interpreting some of that very very very badly.

[chris-walsh.livejournal.com]

We could clear up that you're gorgeous with a Powerpoint presentation.

(Feel better. I want you to be able to say, "Hey, insecurities? Screw you!")

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

re: powerpoint Heh!

re: insecurities It's a constant process, yes? *hug*

[hughcasey.livejournal.com]

I know you don't always see that you're pretty, but I think you're just beautiful. <3

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

*blush* Thank you.

[(Anonymous)]

I have felt this way about myself my whole life. I remember watching A just sleep & think "how can this gorgeous man love lumpy, bumpy, imperfect ME?" turns out he was thinking the same thing of me, "how can this woman love imperfect me?" I wish there was some magical cure to help people really see how beautiful they really are.

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

Agreed. *hug*