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elionwyrexcerpt from [Wood Pond, Gentle, Deep in Self-Communion...]
...If only one thing could come sieze me!
Sick at heart I shade my forehead with my hand
because I know: love is too hard for me.
Where is the one who can do it?
When inwardly I put myself together
before irreconcilable opposites:
I couldn't go on: though I kept looking:
remained the looker lost in himself,
looked without conditions, on my knees,
until I had attained it in myself.
Does this mean it found love in me?
Consolation for freedom relinquished,
when from the expanses of creation
as if with stifled cries,
in this unknown spirit it went under?
Have I damaged what I've acquired,
not thinking how best I might sieze it,
imprisoning things accustomed to space
close in my heart?
Do I contain them the way this room contains me,
this unfamiliar room contains me,
my soul?...
...If only one thing could come sieze me!
Sick at heart I shade my forehead with my hand
because I know: love is too hard for me.
Where is the one who can do it?
When inwardly I put myself together
before irreconcilable opposites:
I couldn't go on: though I kept looking:
remained the looker lost in himself,
looked without conditions, on my knees,
until I had attained it in myself.
Does this mean it found love in me?
Consolation for freedom relinquished,
when from the expanses of creation
as if with stifled cries,
in this unknown spirit it went under?
Have I damaged what I've acquired,
not thinking how best I might sieze it,
imprisoning things accustomed to space
close in my heart?
Do I contain them the way this room contains me,
this unfamiliar room contains me,
my soul?...
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This reminds me of the many times I have said, "It's just not worth the pain.".
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Date: 2003-02-17 10:08 am (UTC)*sigh*
*hug*