LJ Idol Week 14: Twitterpated

[elionwyr]

..I'm not afraid
more than you think
of emptiness..

If you were to ask me which fictional character I related to the most out of any I'd encountered? For a very long time, the answer would have been, "The Phantom of the Opera." Too shy, too inexperienced, too tangled in the pressures put upon me as a child regarding my sexual preferences - oh god oh god what if I turned out to be gay? - I chose instead to bottle up my emotions and, like tortured Erik, look longingly at love from a distance, unsure how to not be a ghost.

And so I am a creature with a long history of fluttering at the edges of attraction.

..I feel you take me to the brink
of happiness..

He walks into the room wearing glasses and a suit.

I forget how to breathe.

He half-smiles at my reaction. "I don't get it," he confesses.

He has dressed for me, suspecting the way my heart would flutter; yet in the face of my inability to see anyone but him, he is almost frowning his confusion.

I look forward to showing him, in private, exactly how much I like that outfit.

"..Do you remember where we've been?
Will we end up finding somewhere to begin?

I place my hand along the side of his face, his cheek against the curve of my palm. "I'm allowed to do this."

"Well..yes."

I don't think he sees the ghost fluttering in my eyes, the tragic tortured phantom stepping off my internal stage, maybe for the last time.

Our lips touch in something more than a kiss.

..I know how to travel
and I know how to leave
maybe I ought to stay
until I'm home..

There was a time we seemed impossible. In the quirky twists of my inner time-scape, I may always be the woman longing for these moments - the woman reaching back through time to reassure my past-self that yes, this is your future - the woman celebrating a lifetime in his arms.

I touch his face again.

There aren't enough ways to say "I love you."

~~~~~
http://www.4shared.com/mp3/OD6jIYbD/november_project_-_Are_You_Sle.html

Comments

[cypherindigo.livejournal.com]

"I chose instead to bottle up my emotions and, like tortured Erik, look longingly at love from a distance, unsure how to not be a ghost.

And so I am a creature with a long history of fluttering at the edges of attraction"

Even now, this is me -- I expect it always will be.

[harkalark.livejournal.com]

Nice music. ;)

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

I grok, love. *fierce hug*

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

I thought you might approve! :)

[similiesslip.livejournal.com]

This is so beautiful, the type of love that feels so full and overflowing.

I'm so glad you found your love!

(And I have to say, I've also always liked this quote from your user info:

"The thing that makes you exceptional,
if you are at all,
is inevitably that which must also make you lonely."
- Lorraine Hansberry)

It's always nice to read of people who found happiness in love:)

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

(Sorry for the screening - you think I'd remember, and yet I forget every single week..!)

Thank you for your kind words...and yes, it's a great quote, isn't it? :)

I'm a very lucky woman to have found this most perfect-for-me man.

<3

[amy hoffman (from livejournal.com)]

Its amazing when you find these feelings and thoughts and realize that for once, they aren't a fantasy, they aren't a dream, they are there, and they are real. <3

Re: <3

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

I know you know.

[shadowwolf13]

Oh ..... My!

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Love this so Hard! Gorgeous Sweetie, simply gorgeous.

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

*happy dance* :D

[imafarmgirl.livejournal.com]

Lovely. I enjoyed some of the poetic lines.

[adelheid-p.livejournal.com]

Nice vignette--very expressive.

[myrna-bird.livejournal.com]

Lovely words and nicely styled.

[mac-arthur-park.livejournal.com]

Very lyrical. Beautiful.

[jacq22.livejournal.com]

Beautiful and as I have endured, and survived 53 years I feel the love.

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

<- twitterpated like whoa :)

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

Thank you. :)

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

Oh, good - then I did the subject matter justice. :)
Thank you!

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

*hug*

[adelheid-p.livejournal.com]

*nods*

[whipchick.livejournal.com]

Such a sweet and shy expression of your feelings :)

[basric.livejournal.com]

This was absolutely gorgeous.

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

Mine was Cats, but I've seen so many versions of Phantom..

Thank you for the feedback. :)

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

:)

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[lawchicky.livejournal.com]

Awww, very sweet!

[pixiebelle.livejournal.com]

This was beautiful. I currently feel like I am living a dream, things are too good to be true with the person I love... And I often tell him that I can't properly express (with words) how much I love him. It's just not possible.

Very beautiful post.

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

Thank you. :) I'm glad you have that experience! *hug*

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

Thank you. :)

[jem0000000.livejournal.com]

Gorgeous. :)

[copyright1983.livejournal.com]

"Love me, that's all I ask of you." Love that show. :) Nicely done!

[poppetawoppet.livejournal.com]

gosh this is just gorgeous