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elionwyr ([personal profile] elionwyr) wrote2012-11-12 08:05 pm
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What the mirror of your eyes tells me

I went to Philly this weekend with [livejournal.com profile] adelheid_p. She was attending Philcon; I was riding shotgun and visiting people.

First goal: spend a huge chunk of time with [livejournal.com profile] ysobelle, as we were very overdue for a visit. Second goal: see as many other people that were at Philcon as I possibly could. (I did not attend the con. One person said he was surprised to see me because everything he'd seen me say online showed I was very anti-Philcon. To be clear, I think the con needs major overhauling. I dislike seeing so many of my friends so frustrated by the event. I hope that changes. There are some really good people there that really care a lot. They deserve to see their care realized into something fabulous.)
So I spent not-enough-time with my beloved [livejournal.com profile] ysobelle and her amazing purring collie (...no, really, she's learned how to purr and it's both adorable and WTF?), and I went back to the con hotel, where I was met with a whole lot of love.

Some of you will now be rolling your eyes and wondering why that should come as a surprise. The fact is, I've grown so used to the gas lighting and lies and slander told about me by a very small number of people that when someone takes me by the chin and raises my head to look past that, I am surprised to see that 99.9% of the people that touch my world see a very different image of me.

And yes, I see that vision in the reflection of my lover's eyes, and in the way my day to day friends treat me. The difference is that when you are completely surrounded by love coming from friends and acquaintances, when you literally can't walk down a hall without people hugging you..that right there? That's some powerful healing magic.

Having a friend tell me that oh, that pirate bangle bracelet was created with me in mind..having a coworker I've not seen in easily ten years or more tell me about the joy she had gotten for years from a saved note I'd given her at work and how watching me navigate tumultuous relationships and still stay friends with people had been amazing..having person after person tell me, softly, that they were so glad I was happy and doing well, that I deserve it..

Dear heavens, I am such a lucky woman. Thank you for loving me, for letting your hearts and your eyes be my mirror. Thank you, beloved friends, for the dazzling gifts of you.

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[identity profile] adelheid-p.livejournal.com 2012-11-13 01:25 am (UTC)(link)
This right there is worth it all. And I enjoyed it beyond this but to see you finally happy and feeling the love. It's the best gift I could give you.
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[identity profile] elionwyr.livejournal.com 2012-11-13 02:07 am (UTC)(link)
It really was. <3 <3 <3
Thank you x so much!!

[identity profile] dandelion-diva.livejournal.com 2012-11-13 02:16 am (UTC)(link)
You deserve nothing less.

[identity profile] janusaries.livejournal.com 2012-11-13 06:15 am (UTC)(link)
You deserve this. And nothing less.

[identity profile] purplefrog26.livejournal.com 2012-11-13 04:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Awww best picture ever.

[identity profile] cissa.livejournal.com 2012-11-14 03:53 am (UTC)(link)
You deserve it all! *hugs*